The illusion can overshadow your gifts. You must learn to recognize what is and what is not. It is this recognition which will lead you to a greater understanding of yourself and the gifts you possess.
To help bring these gifts to the surface you may draw up memories of happiness. In these memories you can acknowledge the reasons for the happiness. What were you doing, who were you with, how did you feel while certain experiences and interactions were occurring? The answers are the clues. You may pursue it from there.
Trust the information you receive. They are messages from your soul to the conscious you. Integrate this information and use this “new” knowledge as a platform for change.