There is a level of elevated understanding waiting for you to aspire to. You are moving forward very quickly now at your own behest. You will reap the rewards of your desires as you proceed down your path toward enlightenment. You will know fulfillment in this lifetime if you continue on course.
It is always your decision to continue or not. Free will is the prerogative of the human mind, for free will resides within the mind itself. In spite of all you may believe, this is the truth.
There will be no penalties, only rewards.